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But is HE really enough??? August 31, 2012

Posted by theregenerateme in Uncategorized.
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But He said to me, My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Cor 12:9

Recently, something has become painfully clear to me. Something that quite frankly, I’ve been unwilling to see….my own blind spot if you will, in my walk with the Lord. I’ve proclaimed for years now, that I trust God. Of course I do, I am His child. I cling to His Word. I believe HE is Sovereign. So yes, of course I trust Him…..don’t I? Man, I wish it was that simple sometimes……and yet, I know (now more than ever), that it CAN”T be this simple. For if it was this easy, it would only be a short matter of time before every one of us would STOP seeing our desperate need for Him.

So, if I feel so confident in my trust for and in Him, then I must be a great example, and should be able to share with all of you what this said trust looks like, eh? Hmm, now I’m not feeling so confident…..not feeling so sure about my trust. The thing is, as I reflect over the years of my walk with the Lord, and how I’ve dealt with trials and burdens, well-I’m not so sure I totally like what I see. I see myself picking up the phone…..A LOT. I see me turning my brain OFF with the tv or a movie. I see me running to the kitchen to find something to eat, scurrying around the house in a mad effort to see instant results in something….dust, clean bathrooms, vacuum (but still no peace)…..almost NEVER in my walk with the Lord, have I FIRST run to Him. I almost always get there, but never FIRST. This breaks my heart, and no doubt Christ’s too. What am I saying about what I believe with my actions?? I am saying that a friend is more trustworthy than GOD? That a movie will make me feel better somehow? That food will cure my weary heart? Oh my Heavenly Father….please forgive me!!!

“But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.” Matthew 6:33

I’ve known this passage since I was a little girl…so why have I not allowed it to break my bones and pierce my heart? Because I have chosen not to trust that HE ALONE is able. HIS KINGDOM ALONE is all I have ever needed. Even as I write this, I find myself praying to GOD to help me overcome my disbelief. My feeble faith fails me, time and time again. But I want to believe more…..trust more…..strive less.

I thank GOD for precious members of the body of Christ. I am not saying that we aren’t suppose to be there for one another, and carry each other’s burdens. We are. But we all also MUST put Christ first, and in doing so, we can better see our sweet sisters and brothers needs to do the same. I thank my Lord for some of the best friends I will no doubt ever have (you know who you are, and I love you!). Through you all, and His Word, and my own prayer life, my sweet Savior is making it LOUD and CLEAR. It’s as close to an audible voice as it can get. “Come to Me. Rest in Me. Trust ME. I created you. I know you. I know every single thing you think, do, have done, and will do. I am the best Counselor. RUN. TO. ME.

“Evening, morning, and noon, I cry out in distress, and He hears my voice.” Ps 55:17

 

                                 “Come to me, all who labor and heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28 

 

Oh Abba, You are always right here….always. The unending mercy You have shown me, as I have clumsily walked with You….many times letting Your hand go, and following my own will, my own selfish controlling ways. But YOU GOD, You never left me. You never leave me. You’ll never forsake me. Ever. How can I know that, and not RUN TO YOU as fast as I can? Oh my grieving heart! You are too good to me, to love me enough, to patiently teach me this. And forgive me Father, for I know You have taught me so many things, OVER AND OVER. Yes indeed, Your grace is sufficient. Of course it is. I am drenched in Your abundant grace, and feel the daily mercies lavishly overflowing onto my life.

Your blessings are never ending. You’ve given me a husband, (9 years ago today in fact), 3 beautiful children, a precious church family…..but most of all Lord, You have given me Your son, Jesus Christ. Forgive me for taking Him for granted. Forgive me for not trusting that You are perfectly able to give me a peace that passes all understanding. Help me to long for You. Help me to RUN to You alone. You are good. You are faithful. I am undeserving. I love you.

“Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge.” Psalm 62:8

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