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Proof of Change April 15, 2008

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This weekend I was cleaning out some drawers that had old papers, folders, etc., when I came across a small old binder. It was the binder that I wrote my lessons in while I attended a class called Companions in Christ at my old church. I was reading through it, and literally was beside myself in total shock. I didn’t need any further proof from the Lord that I am a new Christian, a transformed life, a regenerated human. But as I read, I just couldn’t believe those were my words. We studied different Scriptures in this class, but I have NO memory of that. In fact, I came to a page where I am describing in detail how much I Iike a certain passage that happens to now be THE passage that is now my life, my transformation. I have no memory of ever reading that before I was saved. I continue to read on in my little journal entries, and see how lost I was, having NO understanding of interpreting the Bible. But then, I come to a page here and there that gives a glimpse of hope. I was writing in ways that elude to a strong desire to understand the Truth. To live for Him. To be an imitator of God. Unfortunately, almost everything I wrote was so surface or worldly in perspective. I just wasn’t getting equipped correctly. But in these entries, I can see that God was working on me, waiting patiently for the moment to make Himself known to me. I want to share a couple of these entries, as further OBVIOUS proof of a changed heart, a changed life, and a TOTAL TRANSFORMATION.

Here’s an entry that blew me away;

  • Exercise 1: Who do you relate to, Marin Luther or Mother Teresa? (*Keep in mind, I had NO idea who Marin Luther was–thought they meant MLK, and knew of M.T., but not who she really was)

“The only person I would perhaps identify with would be Mother Teresa. I am not the type of person that would stand up and preach the word, or lay out my testimony and convictions for everyone to hear. But rather I would enjoy something that felt more inimate, heartfelt, and one on one. I’ve never had the honor and blessing through God to have “saved anyone” (that I know of), but I do believe through God, I have been a strong advisor to close friends and family members. That feels gratifying and my faith strengthens.”


WOW. Let’s all say it together…WOW. Where do I start with that one? How about the fact that I was so turned off by evangelism. I said I wasn’t the type to share my testimony! Ha…..and now look; God just allowed me to do that last Friday night, and ALL I want to do is share the Gospel. PROOF. And how about me saying that I actually could do the “saving”. Can we say confused and blind. More PROOF.

Here’s another entry–this one is talking about THE passage that describes my life now;

  • Exercise on Ephesians 4

“I long for the spiritual maturity that allows a complete humble attitude; to be a more patient person. I also long for true righteousness and holiness as we find in God’s image and love. I feel like these 2 verses reflect the “old” me shedding and the “new” me that’s beginning to grow. Not that all I have done in the past was wrong and deceitful; and not that all that is to come will be without imperfections, but rather the conscious change of heart and mind to put certain feelings that are to be considered impure, immoral, and deceitful behind me and close that door. Open a new door to better choices and to put much thought into them, reflecting on the past decision making.”

Hmm….can I get another WOW? Anyone, anyone? I’m not even sure I understand what I just read, but I think I thought I had total ability and control over change. I just took the passage in Eph (4:22-24), and claimed personal authority to overcome that change….all by myself. Do what??? And as far as the first part where I am claiming the longing to like God, in true righteousness and holiness; yeah, I am pretty sure I just re-wrote the end of verse 24, having no clue what that even meant. A plagiarism of sorts, if you will. PROOF.

I am so glad that I came across this small old binder. You see, in many ways, this is a little treasure to me. It allows me to have a tangible reminder of God’s unbelievable, undeserved and unmerited Grace in my life. He did something Awesome to me! Just like the Scripture says, this relates to me before I was saved;

“The God of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God.” (2 Cor 4:4)

And then what God, in His grace, did for me;

“The LORD opens the eyes of the blind;The LORD raises up those who are bowed down;The LORD loves the righteous” (Psalm 146:8 )

Lord God, I kneel before you with such a thankful heart. I am amazed at what You have done in my life, and what You continue to do. Thank You for opening my blinded eyes, and revealing The Truth to me. You are an AWESOME GOD, and I praise Your name. ~Amen.

By His Grace Alone,






I am weak April 3, 2008

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This last month I have been preparing for an opportunity to share my testimony in public. It’s a great opportunity to boast in Christ, and to glorify Him in everything I say. I always get excited when I get to make much of Him, make His name famous, and tell people of His gracious and transforming power. I was warned that as I prepared and studied in The Word, I would come under fire, and be distracted by the evil one. He would use this time to confuse me, bring the shame into present day, and convince me that I am not worthy to speak. Well, every bit of this has absolutely happened. I have even experienced persecution from loved ones. It’s been unreal. And it has caused me to become quite weak. But here’s where I become so ever thankful for knowing His Word;

“That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Cor. 12:10)

Yes indeed! I will praise Him from the mountaintops when I am weak, because I know HE is doing something good. My earthly body can fall apart from the outside in to the inside out, my house can be in total chaos, relationships can be tense, but I believe God’s precious Word. I do delight in the trials HE allows me to go through. I will take these moments in stride and worship a God so great, so perfectly Sovereign, that He disciplines us for our good, for His glory!

 Lord, I do pray that You will be with me tomorrow night. I ask that I would not stand in the way, but lay aside my flesh, so that You can use me as Your instrument, for Your glory! Thank You for such a special opportunity….to boast in Your mighty transforming power! Amen.

In Sweet Worship,


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